I'm not perfect: 1 of 10
Sometimes I have a short temper.
Not always, but often enough that I'm ashamed of it.
Especially when you consider who really catches the brunt of it: my spouse or my kids.
They deserve better.
On the other hand, I'm human. I'm fallible. I'm not perfect.
Both are true statements. They do deserve better and I am human.
The important thing, in my opinion, is that I'm conscious of it and that I'm working on it. I've discovered that there are certain triggers that make it more likely to happen.
One is being tired.
Another is having two drinks.
I don't know why that's the magic number, but it was a long Covid-winter last year and there were some nights where instead of none or one I would indulge in two and there's something about that second one that removes my patience.
It makes me tired, irritable, and short-tempered.
This past month I've been working on building healthier habits, especially getting back into reading, writing, and working out.
My goal is to replace negative habits with positive ones.
It's still early, but I'm excited about how things are going so far.
But it’s still early and there are more failures than successes.
I'm posting this publicly in the hopes that it helps someone else out there.
Someone who is struggling with the fact that you're not perfect, but are frustrated that everywhere you look around you is perfection.
Let this serve as a quick reminder that the perfection you see all around is just a veneer.
And that it's okay - you're not alone in feeling frustrated by that veneer.
